'ever since I was a baby girl ... wanted one thing most in this world ... it was to keep my love, keep my love alive.'
Friday, July 30, 2010
stressing to the max ...
Time is running out ...
I don't mean my lifetime {although, it most certainly is, if we want to be morbid about things ...}, but my time here in Pikeville. And with the all-too-quick elapse of time comes the all-too-frequent rises in my stress, and I'm sure my blood pressure, level. I am planning to make the move from eastern Kentucky to central Ohio in two short weeks. I started apartment destruction yesterday ... emptying my closet {the walk-in that never really was due to all of the junk that kept making its way there}, going through cabinets, starting packing boxes here and there. I'm not sure that I ever really stuck to one task at a time. I sorted, I piled, I put a couple of things in boxes, I donated, I threw away, I began a shredding pile since I was too lazy to plug the dern thing in and run things through as I found them. Now, I imagine that two weeks should probably be plenty of time to pack up and prepare to move, but I'm stressing and flipping out nonetheless. I'm heading to Columbus next week for a couple of days and I was hoping to spend the next week in Virginia, spending some time with my familia and helping them get a few things done before I take off. I don't know if that's going to happen or not, but I surely hope that it does. At any rate, emotions are high, stress levels are through the roof, and I'm about to have a fit and/or a major breakdown.
I also need to prepare for my online class that will be gearing up in a few short weeks ... teaching two classes in June and July, in addition to running around like a crazy werewolf or a wandering vampire {yes, I've been reading the Twilight series this summer ...}, have zapped every last smidgen of energy from me.
So if you're reading this, PLEASE say a prayer for yours truly. I know that everything is going to be fine. I know that it will all come together as it always does -- God has His way of always working it out. But for some reason this evening, I am stressing and I am stressing hardcore.
I don't mean my lifetime {although, it most certainly is, if we want to be morbid about things ...}, but my time here in Pikeville. And with the all-too-quick elapse of time comes the all-too-frequent rises in my stress, and I'm sure my blood pressure, level. I am planning to make the move from eastern Kentucky to central Ohio in two short weeks. I started apartment destruction yesterday ... emptying my closet {the walk-in that never really was due to all of the junk that kept making its way there}, going through cabinets, starting packing boxes here and there. I'm not sure that I ever really stuck to one task at a time. I sorted, I piled, I put a couple of things in boxes, I donated, I threw away, I began a shredding pile since I was too lazy to plug the dern thing in and run things through as I found them. Now, I imagine that two weeks should probably be plenty of time to pack up and prepare to move, but I'm stressing and flipping out nonetheless. I'm heading to Columbus next week for a couple of days and I was hoping to spend the next week in Virginia, spending some time with my familia and helping them get a few things done before I take off. I don't know if that's going to happen or not, but I surely hope that it does. At any rate, emotions are high, stress levels are through the roof, and I'm about to have a fit and/or a major breakdown.
I also need to prepare for my online class that will be gearing up in a few short weeks ... teaching two classes in June and July, in addition to running around like a crazy werewolf or a wandering vampire {yes, I've been reading the Twilight series this summer ...}, have zapped every last smidgen of energy from me.
So if you're reading this, PLEASE say a prayer for yours truly. I know that everything is going to be fine. I know that it will all come together as it always does -- God has His way of always working it out. But for some reason this evening, I am stressing and I am stressing hardcore.
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
back into the swing of things ...
I am jumping back into the blogging world. Sadly, my idea to start and maintain a blog of my very own was only good for three entries ... It's been over 2 months since I wrote my last entry. So ... I'm getting back into the game. I have decided this evening that I want to get back into the game in a lot of different ways. Unfortunately, this blog suffered the same initial fate that a lot of my ideas/projects meet ... it started off with a bang of dedication ... and then crashed in a nosedive of defeat.
I have been thinking about my blog for the past few days or so and how I needed to get it started back up. And then I told myself the same ol' stale reasons for not writing it anymore. 'You don't have time.' 'You have other things to do.' 'What would you write about?' etc, etc. I started reading my friend Stephanie's blog today and was so impressed with her dedication and commitment to it already and it was then that I decided that I was going to continue to write even if I didn't have time. So there.
Also this evening I have decided that I'm going to start making time for the things that I have been postponing and shrugging off that should be activities that are of the utmost importance to me. I am going to do my best to conduct a self-spiritual and physical overhaul. I need to work on my relationship with God. I talk to Him quite often, many times a day in fact. But I do not feel, however, that I spend the time that I should with Him. I don't read as much as I want to. I do not meditate as I would like to. I am in atrocious physical shape. I looked at some pictures from the weekend and have decided that the cutest face ever is being held up by one of the most hideous bodies ever. Say what you want ... that's my story and I'm sticking to it. I am stuck in a rut ... spiritually, physically, emotionally, and mentally ... and I HAVE to shift myself into four-wheel drive and get the hell out of there. Sooooo ... Ella has declared civil war on herself ... and dares anybody to get in her way.